Musings

have you ever wondered,
      if life is zooming past,
you are standing at the anvils,
      and the pace is just too fast

have you looked at the mirror,
      every single day of your life,
now staring back at you is a stranger,
      and you wonder, who is that?

have you always waged a battle,
      you against your fate,
then tired of the struggle,
      gave in, not feeling great

have you ever prayed so hard,
      and bet your odds against it all,
and saw your prayers answered,
      and your ego have a mighty fall

have you clasped your dreams,
      so close to your heart,
that waking up seems so scary,
      for your dreams might fall apart

have you watched children frolic,
      and splash about in rain,
and wished you could go back in time,
      and be a child once again

have you wondered every now and then,
      about the mystery engulfing life,
and still went on living as always,
      too harried to spare a thought

life with all its questions,
      and life indeed with all the answers,
have you ever wondered, if life is still a question,
      and we, the answer to it all?

An unborn dream...

stories unthought, unheard, untold
lives forgotten, remembered, unlived

sea storm in the bosom of a single tear,
a stifle that makes the heart wrench with fear

i do not miss you so much, how can i?
says the mother of an unborn child,
i did not know you so much, now, did i?

a part of me, you were, now gone,
now i am just me, all alone,
inside of me now a hollow resides

my dreams of you, are no more now mine,
the twinkle in my eyes has lost its shine

the cradle rocks in emptiness,
my heart now bores its heaviness

it bleeds of love i couldn't give,
of warmth and glory of motherhood

if only i could turn back time,
if only i could hold your hand

with your little fingers holding on to me,
and your gaze forever finding me

the void which is so deep, so dark,
how do i fill it, how do i find you back?