Those were the days....

Those were the days when being together wasn't a compulsion forced upon by time. Those were the days when you knew all my little secrets and i knew yours. Those were the days when our first crushes were shared with an ardent anticipation and joyful hopes. Those were the days of girly chatter which lasted for hours together without realizing how much time has passed. Those were the days when we thought that this is what freedom is all about, loving, caring and being there for each other, no matter what. Those were the days when the painful moments of heartbreak were shared and there was a shoulder to cry on, when the hope that things will be better seemed so true just by the mere presence of each other. Two minds, two souls, leaning on each other, building the wall of friendship, stronger than ever.

And then, the times changed..or did we?

These are the days when dropping a line to say hello takes months of careful pondering. These are the days when the words seem to get lost in some unknown space before being uttered, as if knowing that the distance is too large to be crossed. These are the days when there is no more the chatter, nor any sound of the carefree laughter, no more of spending time together, no more secrets to be shared. These are the days when the ways have parted and you seem to have taken a different road. Our paths now somehow do not meet and there isn't any sign of a crossroad either.

But i long for the good old days. There still exists a faint hope deep within me that those days will merge into these, that the distinction will be blurred and that our paths will cross again...Someday !!!

Dreams.....

I saw a rainbow in my dream,
    on a cloudy day across the stream

I saw a blade of grass aglow,
    with the dewdrop sliding fresh n pure

I saw a blooming daisy flower,
    beneath the trembling crumbling tower

I saw the waters rise and fall,
    forming a pattern on the mountain wall

Far away on the mountain top,
    i saw you standing deep in thought

I called your name with all my heart,
    you wouldnt turn, no matter what

I dropped my gaze with a broken heart,
    you and i stood worlds apart

The stillness of the time, the place,
    is still with me in many ways

I long to wake up from this dream,
    to hold your hands and fly away........

Aww..Me...

A part of me : This is awful!
The rest of me : You need to see the glass as half full and not half empty
A part of me : I dont see it as half empty. I see it as completely empty and honestly, i dont see any glass at all :P
The rest of me : When life throws lemons at you, make lemonade
A part of me : Yes, you are right. And i have a sore throat. So lemonade will actually help me make life worse for me. But then again, as i said there is no glass, so how do i make the lemonade?
The rest of me : You need to start looking at the brighter side of life
A part of me : It is dark right now. So i guess i'll wait for the sun to rise.
The rest of me : You are impossible!
A part of me : Which according to Adidas is nothing. Which means i am nothing. Which means this is so awful!

Gist (To be read in CAPITAL and BOLD) : The weather seems to (or rather i am sure it does) have an undue effect on me which in its entirety i am yet to figure out.

Of sportshoes n stuff

I dont wear sports shoes anymore. I used to, in the past, but do not anymore. Not since i outgrew the pair i had. It was my favourite pair. The new ones never matched up to my expectations anyways. But somewhere between the time i outgrew my old pair and realised that i dont wear sports shoes anymore, maybe sometime during this era, is probably when i lost all my connections too. I no longer seem to fit in the regular flow of life. I am that outcast who struggles to hold on to the frail ends of the survival instincts but somehow my grip loosens every passing minute and it wouldnt be long before i would be drifted away by a passing whiff of breeze to nowhere. And i morbidly await the end.

Christmas wishlist !

The christmas bells toll far away,
Santa approaches on his sleigh,
I hope his gifts bring us great joy,
And happiness, one cannot weigh !!

A Christmas wish

Seasons come and seasons go,
Some just pass by, some make you grow,
I hope this season brings for us,
Eternal moments of bliss for sure!!!

Happy Holidays !

Brighter days and starry nights,
Crimson hues, silver delights,
Now "Angels" tread upon this earth,
To fill your path with love and light............

Ouch.....

We only get hurt as much as we allow ourselves to be...not more, not less...Then why is it that we still feel the pangs of pain now and then?...If it was all so easy..if it was really a matter of us not letting the pain seep in..., how come it hurts so much every now and then...

Now and again.....

I sit on the park bench doing absolutely nothing. Just trying to be in the present moment, here, now. But i can feel the inner anguish, the eternal struggle to race ahead or to relive the past. Why is it so difficult to just be without having to do anything at all ? Fear of the future, the hauntings of the past, thoughts zip zapping to and fro, an eternal chaos...Intermittently the struggle to feel the placidness, a stillness in time, an absolute void. Longing for a serene moment and nothing else.......

And...

All shall be well,
And all shall be well,
And all manner of things shall be well..............