Blessings - Journal Entry 2

•  A new beginning - a new year
• A well spent year in retrospect
• Health
• Beautiful dreams
• Looking forward to a wonderful year
• Free space
• Peace and quiet
• Hugs from my baby
• N's laughter reverberating through the house
• Yummy food

Blessings - Journal Entry 1

•  A beautiful morning
• Pitter patter of rain outside
• The otherwise silent moments in the early morning
• A hot cup of my favorite coffee
• Completion of my morning walk
• A clear work desk
• A clear head
• A fresh new day
• Birds chirping
• The soft ticking of the clock

A Burst Of Happiness

A sprinkle of color, a burst of happiness, a spot of joy - That's what this picture represents for me. The eternal beauty captured in time which i can bring back from memory over and over. And the feeling of exuberant joy fills me up every single time!! 

Gratitude-O-Meter 16 October 2016

1. Warm, sunny, a light breeze blowing - that's a perfect Sunday afternoon. And add to that, the rhapsody of a few fluttering butterflies. It's the perfect picture that mother nature has come up with. And that is precisely what i had the pleasure of witnessing. Butterflies make me happy beyond doubt. These carefree bundles hippity hopping across my backyard provided me with the perfect afternoon amusement. Especially a white one which happened to flutter about forming a beautiful tapestry in the invisible air.
2. I finally got a hold of my lazy inertia and managed to start on and complete the initial draft of my work presentation with ease. Once i started, the ideas just kept flowing.
3. I read a wonderful book on Gratitude today. Also, thanks to Amazon Kindle, i started reading 'The Last Unicorn' again. I loved reading it before and i am certainly enjoying the read again.
4. I started with my gratitude jar practice today with my husband. Just like a child filled with wonder, I am certainly looking forward to some wonderful moments of amazement, wonder and magic when i do my practice everyday with him.
5. I listened to some wonderful old songs on you tube today. They brought back some warm memories which made me smile.

Gratitude-O-Meter 22 July 2016

What am i grateful for today?

Grateful for just being. Nothing more. Nothing less. After all the trials and tribulations of the past few months, i have learned to take a deep breath and just be. And this has brought me closer to me, my inner self and helped me experience a glimmer of inner peace. And for that i am grateful!

Can you hear me?

It has been more than a month since the dreadful day. The day i lost you forever. I was just getting to know you. Feel you not only in my womb but also my heart. And then without a trace, you were gone. Why? I still search for you in the void that you left behind. I have an image of you in my mind. One filled with warmth, joy, happiness and laughter. Your smile lights up my moment, even if it is my silly imagination. With every passing moment, i build you in my dreams. Stronger than ever. Your smile gives me hope to go on. And some day, i hope you will find me back too!

Home away from home..

A thick canopy of dense trees shrouds the path as i journey along. The long stretch of roads wind, unwind and unravel before me, immaculate in their placing and creation. A few high rises play peek a boo amidst the canopy, as if defying their need to touch the sky and to remain rooted to the ground at the same time. The thick grey of winter has been replaced by the abundant sunlight as if washing away the fogs of yesterday with the warmth of today and an oncoming tomorrow. Everywhere i look around, summer makes its presence known and felt. The metamorphosis of winter into spring and finally into summer has been a spectacle indeed, a breathtaking transformation of grey and silver into a plethora of colors, of the vast emptiness into unimaginable abundance. Amidst the simmering heat, the glistening topiaries of green spread across miles, the breathtaking rainbow of flowers, my heart seems to search for a sense of familiarity. In a land so far away, it seems to have found a home away from home.

An elusive paradise..

You looked into my eyes and i saw my world in you. A world i have always longed to be in. But then i looked away. For you see, i cannot leave this world too.

I asked you what love is. You said it is what you feel for me. And then i fell into an even deeper abyss. For you see, i am yet to learn to fly, on the wings of love.

You took me in your arms and for a moment, i forgot my existence. I forgot who i was. It almost felt like a dream, almost... But then i stepped away from your embrace. For you see, i am yet to believe in dreams.

You kissed me on my lips and i quivered within my soul, a war raging within me. But then i turned away. For you see, i am yet to decide which side i am fighting for and against, in the battle within me.

And every time i looked away, i broke within, into pieces i haven't picked up yet. Torn between what is and what could have been. Torn between a moment and an eternity. Torn between the real and the unreal. Torn between the warmth of your breath and the icy coldness of the distance. Torn between you and me.

A whole new universe within this moment, a dream within a dream. And yet, it felt so real. How could that possibly be?

The shadow

Inside of me is a picture of you,

at the moment, it is but a shadow...

calling out to me,

from the depths of beyond,

is that your voice,

or the sound of my sorrow?

the traces, the paths, the boulevards crossed,

the journeys from here to the yonder...

like a memory that fades,

or a hurt that abates,

is that your footstep,

or a trail for me to follow?

laughter's and tears, praises and sneers,

the melodies of hearts strung together....

like the music that thrills,

or the vengeance that kills,

is that your spell,

or the illusion of tomorrow?

it is, but a matter of time,

when the good omens chime,

then the shadow shall pass,

and the picture shall last,

of our love and our heartfelt desire...

Mindless banter...

The void within me deepens day by day. Somedays i feel as if i have too much pent up inside of me and somedays i feel an eerie emptiness within. And the feeling never seems to go away. I wonder why!